Life

Sometimes I think that life gets so overwhelming that you cease "living" and slip into "surviving". I don't particularly care for this mode of life, but right now it is all that I have. We are told that we won't be tested beyond what we are able, but often I feel that statement is an oxymoron because I feel like I am at my limit and anything past that just makes me feel worse whether I can do it or not. I know that once I am on the other side, I will look back and be amazed at my capacity and the obstacles I was able to overcome, but in the heat of the moment it is so hard. I look around and see other people dealing with their own trials and feel like "what is my problem"? I have come to understand that what is hard for me is not hard for someone else, but what is hard for someone else isn't hard for me. My trials are just as hard for me as their trials are for them, just different. This has been one of the most difficult learning experiences and I can't wait for it to end.